Friday, 8 November 2013

Punishment Spanking #2

Hi guys!

I did say I'd keep up with the blogs, so here's the latest on mine and Adam's journey. 

So I've just had my first punishment spanking in some time. It's taken a while but Adam and I came to the conclusion that if we're going to do this, we're going to have to make time for it. 

Now I'd known this spanking was coming all day so the anticipation was crazy. But finally, after all the building up, the moment was upon me.

So Adam starts off my sitting me down and asking me if I knew what I was being spanked for...(of course I did!)...and of course I didn't say that out loud. Then he tells me to lay over the side of the bed with my trousers pulled down and wait for him to come back....after what seemed like hours, he returns with the wooden spoon. 

He starts off by explaining again why I'm getting spanked and then the swats with the hand begin. Honestly in the beginning it felt really good...but then he stopped and I felt the sting of the wooden was a mix of crazy pain and a hint of pleasure. There was no way I was keeping still for that one, no matter how much I tried.

A few swats of that was more than I could bare and I burst into tears...I think the tears were more because of what I had done rather than the pain because I honestly knew I deserved the spanking I was getting. But I think that the punishment had brought up all those feelings that I had disappointed Adam and that was too much to keep in.

It was hard though because even after it was done I found it hard to stop myself from crying. And although all the hugs were there, no amount of telling me it was okay could stop me from feeling upset. It wasn't until Adam told me he loved me and that he wasn't angry with me or disappointed that I felt better.

It took a while to calm down again after all that emotionalness (not a word I know, but it works, right?) but after that all I can think of is how much I love this man and how I never want to feel like I've disappointed him again....soooo I guess the punishment spanking had the desired effect.

Anyway guys, i'm going to go and rest my stinging behind. Hope you're all good and I'll be back soon for an update!


Tuesday, 5 November 2013

We're still here!!!

It has been way too long since I last blogged! Adam and I have just been so busy that I just haven't had the time, but I'm going to promise myself to try and blog at least once a week.

So, again because of the business of both Adam and I, it's been a while since I had a proper punishment spanking. I say proper, because yes I do get a few swats here and here for minor things but that infamous list I've been talking about still hasn't been worked through, in fact it's gotten longer!!

I think maybe the longer it's been since my last proper punishment spanking, the more I try to push the boundaries...(which would probably explain how that list is growing)

One thing I've learnt over the weeks is that consistency is key. I think if I don't get regular maintenance spankings, when I do get one, it comes as a bit of a shock and I get annoyed, rather than tying to understand what I'm being punished for.

Secondly if I don't understand what I'm getting spanked for, I'll definitely put up a fight. Adam and I had to talk about this recently because I felt like we maybe needed to set out a way of me understanding what I've done wrong so I can properly accept my punishment rather than think "this guy is actually trying to bend me over this bed right now!!"

Thirdly, I really, really, REALLY need to work on my submissiveness. Again, this probably links back to the inconsistent spankings, but this is definitely something that I need to improve upon.

Finally, I think I need to blog more, it really is a good way of getting all this info out. And on that note I'll blog again soon guys. And I'll update you all when I get my next spanking, punishment or otherwise ;)


Friday, 11 October 2013

Punishment Number 1

So like I said before, Adam's back!! Yay!  And today was the first day of working through the list on my punishment journal (as well as my first ever punishment spanking)

It wasn't even planned. We started of talking about my low pain threshold and suddenly he's telling my to drop my underwear and bend over the table.

I don't know if I was fully prepared for the emotions that come with punishment spankings, but I was a bit all over the place this evening. And I didn't think I would cry....but I did....twice!

I think that came as a bit of a shock to Adam too because I know he hates to see me cry but I'm quite proud of him, he carried on for a little while even with the tears. (He did stop using the cane though....thankfully)

After making me count the strikes of the hanger and say "thank you daddy" for each one, he then hugged me and like the big baby I am, I cried again.

I honestly can't explain these emotions, I was upset but relieved and angry for having to say "thank you" but sad for disappointing him and happy that once it was done, this could be put behind us.

I guess I can understand why couples do this....there is some level of release in it..but one VERY important thing I've learnt from tonight is that CANES HURT LIKE A MOTHER! 

Thanks for reading all! Will keep you posted on the rest of my punishment's going to be a looong week.


Wednesday, 9 October 2013

The Wait Is Killing Me

Hi guys,

It's only been a couple of days but I thought the introduction post was just that, an introduction. It's about time I filled you in on what's been going on.

Sooo Adam's been away for a while (5 long weeks!) and he'll be back on Friday. Now since we decided to actually take on this dd lifestyle properly, he's made me keep a punishment journal...basically a list of all the things I've done (or said) whilst he's been away and the punishments I'll be getting for them.

The list didnt even start off very long but I've just had a quick scan over it now...I'm not going to be able to sit down for a week!

I realise that a lot of it is my fault, I totally hold me hands up to that...I still talk back quite a bit...I still do things he doesn't like, e.g come home when it's dark and my battery's dead so I wouldn't be able to call him or anyone if anything was to happen to I get his frustration. And of course, me being me, I have tried to negotiate a "lighter" sentence, but with no luck.

So the moral of this story is I need to work on a few things;

1) don't talk back
2) stay sweet
3) don't swear
4) definitely make sure my battery's charged if I'm coming home late (boy does he hate that!)

.....I'm sure there's more, but honestly I can't remember...I'm sure he'll remind me soon enough though.

I'll let you guys know how this goes...wish me luck!!


Sunday, 6 October 2013

Introduction to DD

Hi All!

So this is our very first blog as a DD couple. I have to admit its taken a lot of talking to get to this point...but we're here.

Initially the thought of being a sub wasn't really appealing to me, but I think that's because I didn't understand what it all involved. But after many conversations and reading numerous blogs, it dawned on me, that this is exactly what I've been looking for!

Clearly every DD couple has their own rules and Adam and I had to work out what rules fit our lives. If I'm honest a part of me still tried to put up a fight and say no to some of the things he'd suggested. But I realised that I was less worried about what the "offences" were and more worried about the spankings themselves...what if he hurt me? how do I tell him to stop?

But I'd come to realise that this DD life is centred on trust. I have to trust him to know when I've reached my limit and know not to cross that. And once I got there, all other concerns seemed to fade away.

So here we are....ready to embark on this DD journey.

Hope you join us :)