Friday, 8 November 2013

Punishment Spanking #2

Hi guys!

I did say I'd keep up with the blogs, so here's the latest on mine and Adam's journey. 

So I've just had my first punishment spanking in some time. It's taken a while but Adam and I came to the conclusion that if we're going to do this, we're going to have to make time for it. 

Now I'd known this spanking was coming all day so the anticipation was crazy. But finally, after all the building up, the moment was upon me.

So Adam starts off my sitting me down and asking me if I knew what I was being spanked for...(of course I did!)...and of course I didn't say that out loud. Then he tells me to lay over the side of the bed with my trousers pulled down and wait for him to come back....after what seemed like hours, he returns with the wooden spoon. 

He starts off by explaining again why I'm getting spanked and then the swats with the hand begin. Honestly in the beginning it felt really good...but then he stopped and I felt the sting of the wooden was a mix of crazy pain and a hint of pleasure. There was no way I was keeping still for that one, no matter how much I tried.

A few swats of that was more than I could bare and I burst into tears...I think the tears were more because of what I had done rather than the pain because I honestly knew I deserved the spanking I was getting. But I think that the punishment had brought up all those feelings that I had disappointed Adam and that was too much to keep in.

It was hard though because even after it was done I found it hard to stop myself from crying. And although all the hugs were there, no amount of telling me it was okay could stop me from feeling upset. It wasn't until Adam told me he loved me and that he wasn't angry with me or disappointed that I felt better.

It took a while to calm down again after all that emotionalness (not a word I know, but it works, right?) but after that all I can think of is how much I love this man and how I never want to feel like I've disappointed him again....soooo I guess the punishment spanking had the desired effect.

Anyway guys, i'm going to go and rest my stinging behind. Hope you're all good and I'll be back soon for an update!


Tuesday, 5 November 2013

We're still here!!!

It has been way too long since I last blogged! Adam and I have just been so busy that I just haven't had the time, but I'm going to promise myself to try and blog at least once a week.

So, again because of the business of both Adam and I, it's been a while since I had a proper punishment spanking. I say proper, because yes I do get a few swats here and here for minor things but that infamous list I've been talking about still hasn't been worked through, in fact it's gotten longer!!

I think maybe the longer it's been since my last proper punishment spanking, the more I try to push the boundaries...(which would probably explain how that list is growing)

One thing I've learnt over the weeks is that consistency is key. I think if I don't get regular maintenance spankings, when I do get one, it comes as a bit of a shock and I get annoyed, rather than tying to understand what I'm being punished for.

Secondly if I don't understand what I'm getting spanked for, I'll definitely put up a fight. Adam and I had to talk about this recently because I felt like we maybe needed to set out a way of me understanding what I've done wrong so I can properly accept my punishment rather than think "this guy is actually trying to bend me over this bed right now!!"

Thirdly, I really, really, REALLY need to work on my submissiveness. Again, this probably links back to the inconsistent spankings, but this is definitely something that I need to improve upon.

Finally, I think I need to blog more, it really is a good way of getting all this info out. And on that note I'll blog again soon guys. And I'll update you all when I get my next spanking, punishment or otherwise ;)