Punishment Number 1

So like I said before, Adam's back!! Yay!  And today was the first day of working through the list on my punishment journal (as well as my first ever punishment spanking)

It wasn't even planned. We started of talking about my low pain threshold and suddenly he's telling my to drop my underwear and bend over the table.

I don't know if I was fully prepared for the emotions that come with punishment spankings, but I was a bit all over the place this evening. And I didn't think I would cry....but I did....twice!

I think that came as a bit of a shock to Adam too because I know he hates to see me cry but I'm quite proud of him, he carried on for a little while even with the tears. (He did stop using the cane though....thankfully)

After making me count the strikes of the hanger and say "thank you daddy" for each one, he then hugged me and like the big baby I am, I cried again.

I honestly can't explain these emotions, I was upset but relieved and angry for having to say "thank you" but sad for disappointing him and happy that once it was done, this could be put behind us.

I guess I can understand why couples do this....there is some level of release in it..but one VERY important thing I've learnt from tonight is that CANES HURT LIKE A MOTHER! 

Thanks for reading all! Will keep you posted on the rest of my punishment journal....it's going to be a looong week.

xMx

The Wait Is Killing Me

Hi guys,

It's only been a couple of days but I thought the introduction post was just that, an introduction. It's about time I filled you in on what's been going on.

Sooo Adam's been away for a while (5 long weeks!) and he'll be back on Friday. Now since we decided to actually take on this dd lifestyle properly, he's made me keep a punishment journal...basically a list of all the things I've done (or said) whilst he's been away and the punishments I'll be getting for them.

The list didnt even start off very long but I've just had a quick scan over it now...I'm not going to be able to sit down for a week!

I realise that a lot of it is my fault, I totally hold me hands up to that...I still talk back quite a bit...I still do things he doesn't like, e.g come home when it's dark and my battery's dead so I wouldn't be able to call him or anyone if anything was to happen to me....so I get his frustration. And of course, me being me, I have tried to negotiate a "lighter" sentence, but with no luck.

So the moral of this story is I need to work on a few things;

1) don't talk back

2) stay sweet

3) don't swear

4) definitely make sure my battery's charged if I'm coming home late (boy does he hate that!)

.....I'm sure there's more, but honestly I can't remember...I'm sure he'll remind me soon enough though.

I'll let you guys know how this goes...wish me luck!!

xMx

Introduction to DD

Hi All!

So this is our very first blog as a DD couple. I have to admit its taken a lot of talking to get to this point...but we're here.

Initially the thought of being a sub wasn't really appealing to me, but I think that's because I didn't understand what it all involved. But after many conversations and reading numerous blogs, it dawned on me, that this is exactly what I've been looking for!

Clearly every DD couple has their own rules and Adam and I had to work out what rules fit our lives. If I'm honest a part of me still tried to put up a fight and say no to some of the things he'd suggested. But I realised that I was less worried about what the "offences" were and more worried about the spankings themselves...what if he hurt me? how do I tell him to stop?

But I'd come to realise that this DD life is centred on trust. I have to trust him to know when I've reached my limit and know not to cross that. And once I got there, all other concerns seemed to fade away.

So here we are....ready to embark on this DD journey.

Hope you join us :)